So update on life. Job is going ok. Mental state is good. and I got a laptop.
Omg did I get a laptop. An HP Omen laptop with 8gb of ram, 128 sdd with a 1TB hdd, an Intel i7 7700hq processor and Nvidia GTX 1050ti graphics card.
I can fractal to my hearts content again. Wooo!!!
I think things are looking up for me.